Hey guys, so I’m back after losing control and also after a week long work trip. The journey must continue though. Finally completed my first full trading week. I got back on the 28th of February and proceeded to break many of my rules into Friday, March 8th
Journal entry from Friday March 8th below: Continue reading “More Trading, More Loses, More Risk, More Everything (back dated March 8th, 2018, NFP)”
I did it again today. I put in 2 extra hours after work came home mad AF and just a little stressed and tired. What did I do next? Continue reading “Destruction once again”
Do I really know what makes me risk more than I should. I think vaguely it would be emotions, but which emotions exactly. I’d say mainly greed because I always forget this is a long term game. Last year this time I deposited 1K and lost it over a week period. 1000/5 trading days= –$200 a day roughly. Keep in mind last year I had no real risk management plan.
That’s a loss of more than 10% a day. If I took my time and managed my risk and actually gained that 1% a day for a year I would be laughing now with at least 10-15K and a ton more experience managing my risk and another step closer to leaving the 9-5 life. Right now the #1 goal is to be financially free then mentally and physically fit!
Remember this: Winning takes discipline, discipline comes from confidence and only a system in which you have confidence will you increase your chances of succeeding as a trader.
Today I officially blew up, -85% drawdown between Monday – Tuesday. (equity Curve Below) Continue reading “Self Destruction (again, Back dated December 18th, 2017)”
I always ask myself this question & if the answer is NO I don’t know fucking why… The question is ” was I 100% disciplined?” I’ve consistently not been disciplined, but why? What am I after? I think only I know the answer to that so maybe I should be honest with myself…. Right now I lack the discipline to remain consistently profitable & follow my plan…. my emotions are also out of control & I need to take over that & realize that trading is a long term game.
- I need to practice self discipline in every aspect of life which will hopefully translate to my trading.
- Take less trades, manage risk & focus on quality trade setups.
Just some thoughts
I’ve noticed my trading psychology is a huge factor to why I cannot keep profits. last week I spiraled into a 70% draw down & realized it…. The Sunday – Monday session were yet again my biggest losses. so, I’ve decided to cut Sunday trading out since there isn’t much structure to play off and also reduce the lots on phone trades. After going through this I started to manage my trades a little better by calculating my risk. Today I realized what caused my spiral into self destruction. I don’t like being wrong… its pretty stupid that I always say there is nothing wrong with being wrong even though I don’t like it at all…. “As long as you follow the plan you will be successful.”
Everyday after my trade session The first question I ask myself is if I followed my plan with 100% discipline!! I know that if I follow my plan with 100% discipline & manage my risk, then there should be no emotions attached to a single trade since I believe in the plan & its been back tested. End of day every system will have its losses or two based on market conditions, so its mainly about how the risk is managed.
In order to stop the spiraling & self destruction my best bet is to reduce the trades I open…. This way I can ultimately identify my risk often & also reduce chart time & urges that may arise because sometimes I may be in a trade that was not based on my plan or in a zone.
I’v lost thousands of dollars trading and have learned a lot… last week, October 31st, 2017 I’ve had my best week this year earning ≈ $2,000. Continue reading “My Journey with Risk Recently (Back dated Nov 10th, 2017)”